Finished FSN, feels nice finally putting that to rest, I first read Saber's route years ago and it felt so perfect at the time that I didn't feel any need to read more, I think I might have mentioned that before but well, not like anyone's really reading this lol. The whole way through UBW I was thinking how honestly that initial feel isn't too far from reality but I'm glad I actually read it and HF (which is much more interesting than its immediate predecessor anyway too) even when ignoring the whole closure or feeling of almost obligation towards it.
I really appreciated the atmosphere in Heaven's Feel, as perfect as Stay Night feels to read it really can't compare to Tsukihime or to Kagetsu Tohya when it comes to that singular aspect so I was happy that HF still lit that spark.
Very cute reward at the end of the Taiga Dojo, those I enjoyed much more than the similar Ciel-sensei segments back in the previous games. I'm glad that the meta talk that was present in Plus Disc did not get lost since there's no exact equivalent for Fate - maybe Hollow Ataraxia has some of that too? No idea!
I swung by a shopping center near where I sometimes get groceries and that thing was desolated, pretty sad to see especially since back when I moved here it was quite bustling, The first floor had a handful of jewellery stores open and the other floors had somewhere ranging between 0 and 2 stores open each. It's right in the city center too so it's a shame that the situation is like that, I think there's some rights issue for the building as a whole, not sure, a friend told me what was going on with it a while back but I completely forgot, should look it up again.
Been playing Muramasa too, the 2D action platformer that is, man that game is gorgeous.
Came across a video supposedly unmasking a pokemon speedrunner I used to watch quite a bit as a teen, I think it's the first time I recognize the person from one of those, guess that can happen too.
It's kind of insane that the majority opinion about FSN is that the sex scenes are replaceable and that they "clearly don't fit" or that "the game was not written with them in mind" given how dripping with sexuality that whole thing is, even more than Tsukihime in parts.
Visited an archery range today with a friend, I was mostly curious to see what they're like due to Fate and I'm glad I did, I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would, it's quite relaxing repeating the same general movement once you get the hang of it and the small feeling of progress once you hit the target or what have you is also a good way to break the monotony at the beginning. In that sense the coach(?) there did a nice job with both helping out fix your position as well as the target selection. I think I'll visit again.
On the way there on the bus as I got inside a lady was blocking me from moving further inside for some reason, when the doors closed and I remained by the door she started asking why I was standing there if I'm not getting off at the next stop. Wonder if she just wanted to have an argument with someone or what, sometimes you get people like that who are lonely in that sense. The experience was mostly confusing more than anything though.
I arrived a bit earlier than expected so while waiting for my friend to arrive I sat down on a bench nearby and as I did so another older lady asked if I could help her out with her phone, she wanted to call her son and wasn't able to. No idea how she really managed to do anything with that thing though, the screen was barely responsive and it was also one of the slowest pieces of hardware I've ever interacted with. Her hand was very shaky and it did not have a lot of strength so I'm not sure how she's able to do anything with it. It took a few minutes for me just to unlock it and turn off airplane mode (which fixed the issue, I imagine she turned it on by mistake) and slightly longer to actually get to the call screen to actually call her son. At least we managed to get it done eventually though.
After the archery range we went to eat, we went to a shopping center since there was a chain my friend wanted to try and apparently around when we arrived a huge symposium about the bible, I asked a man behind me on the escalator what had happened since there were troves of people dressed either in all white or with traditional romanian clothes and he explained apparently it was a gathering of some over 10k people from around 30 countries. He had a small insigna on his chest with the name of the group too but I think I'm misremembering it because I can't find it online, neither I can find it by looking up the place and today's date. Unfortunate. Maybe it's a huge conspiracy. That'd be fun. Probably not though, they looked very traditionally christian (not orthodox though, some sort of protestant maybe).
We swung by a building that blew up back in november due to a gas leak too. They haven't demolished it yet for some reason and I was surprised to see it still standing as they left it, some huge chunk looked like it was just dangling there. Can't imagine that thing is any stable.
My ring finger is still numb from the bow session, didn't realize I was mainly using that instead of the other three I was pulling the bow with.
I finished the Fate route yesterday again. Again I feel the same impulse of not needing to really read UBW or HF just due to how perfect it was, last time I ended up giving into that a short while into Rin's route but this time I'm powering through. It's interesting how that feeling still reared its head though, I certainly did not feel the same way with Tsukihime, maybe it's because of their different lengths and also how Arc's route doesn't feel as definitive all things considered.
Everytime I read some news about the EU and its boner for total online control I get all the more depressed. I'm really stuck on how I feel about whether I should emigrate somewhere else outside of Europe or not honestly. Wonder if the me of 10 years ago learned that's how I feel what he would think.
I keep getting reminded about the Cirno museum in Kanagawa. Supposedly you can leave a Cirno themed offering too if there's something you have made so I would like to do but I don't really know what or when, especially since I would prefer if it wasn't just a (let's be real, poorly made) drawing or anything like that. I kinda liked the idea of making a small game but I'd have to learn how to do so in the first place too.
I'm balls deep in Fate/Stay Night right now too though, maybe when I finish it but that seems pretty unlikely knowing myself.
Found someone local selling a seemingly working Vita for pretty cheap so I think I'll get one as a birthday gift, been really curious about one for a while now but especially even more so since I picked up my PSP again, looking forward to it.
The Naoki Yamamoto guy revived again, yay, and speaking of which I wonder when the last Hotta volume will be done too, I'm really looking forward to that as well.
I would like to get into photography too, or rather get a separate camera to take photos with. I don't really like the hand feeling of always whipping out the phone to do so and also all the automatic adjustement it takes I'm not very fond of, though if it was just that I'm sure an alternate camera app would sort that out too.
Wonder if I should just wait until I arrive to Japan to take one. Not sure. I got some recommendations from a store in Italy and I'm probably going to check here in Romania too before I head back there just to see what the options are.
I finished reading Tsukihime and Kagetsu Tohya the other day, lovely games. I think I preferred Kagetsu Tohya overall but I was surprised by the fact that overall I liked the Near Side more than the Far Side this time around, I didn't remember that being the case when I first read Tsukihime.
I'm in the mood to play another VN, maybe even F/SN and F/HA, especially since I only ever finished the first route of the former and the latter really looks phenomenal, but at the same time I would like something that I can handheld with if possible - seems like there's a Vita port of the Ultimate Version of F/SN but it's supposedly both choppy and very crash prone so I'm not sure if it's the right choice - if I get that Vita it's definitely going to be one of the first games I try. Hopefully it's better than anticipated.
Slept like mega shit today, haven't had such a bad sleep in a really long time. Fell asleep at like 2AM, didn't have a good quality rest, woke up at like 5 and a bit and just did not fall back asleep again afterwards. I was planning to swing by Ikea to get something for my drawers to separate socks and what have you but maybe if I feel sleepy enough I'll nap a bit and just go there tomorrow.
Had a really bizarre experience the other day while getting my internet contract renewed, the guy there seemingly did not know what the format of an e-mail address is. He wrote it as name.provider@name and when he read it back and I told him that wasn't it he just got confused, I told it to him again and he wrote it down wrong a second time, asked me to check on his screen and it was still formated wrong. Wonder how that happens, maybe he was just tired, can't imagine he genuinely did not know.
A discord server I joined but don't really frequent has an ero roulette, I was mostly curious to check what people over there were saying but to see the messages you have to join so I did too. Initially I was thinking of banning ASMR/audio only works (I'm not very audio inclined in general) and leaving everything else as fair game but then I figured that it's not likely I'll get that to begin with, plus since I don't really know the medium maybe it's a good chance to get to actually know it. First person I got paired with gave me exactly that lol, I kinda wish I did ban them at least for the first few rounds. It's not translated so if nothing else it's good listening practice.
Been feeling pretty depressed about the continuous censorship discussion and encroachement, I know reading about it doesn't make much sense since it doesn't change anything whether I do or not but I keep falling for the bait, I really wish I could do more to fight against it but there's a pervasive feeling of impotence about it that makes it difficult to even think about a possible way to help, let alone actually research something. It feels like no matter what too many people want this in some way and that it's inevitable but deep down I don't believe that's the case.
I wonder what things will be like in 50, 60, 70 years. Was this was it was like during the soviet revolution or at the beginning of other totalitarian regimes too? I should read more memoirs of people living through those times.
My grandpa, born 1927, has one about his life, I only read the beginning and now it's just sitting home, I wish I had it with me here - I'm in the mood to read more. Hopefully it lasts until I'm back home too.
Rainash, the chinese Naoki Yamamoto translator, hasn't done anything new since last time, sad, I was hoping it would continue for longer, still I appreciate his burst of productivity even if it didn't last as long as I wish it did.
Went to fix my phone yesterday, the screen started falling off the rest of the body - looking it up online it seems like it just needed some glue to keep it in place but it was more expensive than I thought it would be (35€). Hope it lasts at least.
I finished reading Karakuri Cirus this morning too, I'm surprised that the earlier parts are what I've always described as "the thing you have to get past to get to the trve kino" since I enjoyed that the most, overall it was a really enjoyable ride until the Sahara arc more or less and it stayed fairly ok until the end after that too, I can see why people like this as a whole but man Fujita dickriders are a different breed, not the first time I think that while reading something of his and I doubt it will be the last time too.
Need to find some new place to lurk, haven't really found anything inspiring since I stopped engaging much with Oil.
I swear I posted something else on here after that previous one in italian but I guess not, probably dreamed about so during one of those mundane dreams but it wasn't so, it's kinda scary how you can just dream, realize it was a dream but remain with the thought of having done something you actually haven't, not the first time it happens but I wonder if it's something that will continue as I get older too, maybe that's part of that whole process of people not being able to distinguish reality from fantasy as they age. Hopefully not.
I was in Malta with my mom during the easter weekend, I wrote a bit of what we did while there on my phone with the idea of then just repeating it here as daily logs as if they were in vivo but idk if I really like that idea now, think I'll just copy 'em here down below.
Seems like the guy who was translating Naoki Yamamoto has slowed down a bit from his earlier daily zeal, no new translations in almost a week, hopefully it's not a sign that he's going to stop/has stopped for good. I was really happy to check his translations as they were coming out in that sense so either way I'm grateful for the work he did so far but you know how it goes, it's always nice having more.
Stavo provando a scrivere questo post in inglese ma sinceramente mi suonava così brutto che non ce l'ho fatta. Neanche in italiano non sta uscendo chissà che di certo ma c'è una bruttezza spesso nel esprimere certe idee in inglese che non trovo allo stesso livello in altre lingue, almeno personalamente. Anche parlare di censura, censorship la trovo una parola molto disagiante, una di quelle parole che fa ribrezzo anche solo a scriverla che forse in un modo può anche essere una qualità dato che si tratta comunque di qualcosa di così malefico che ne serve una parola alttrettantamente malvagia per esprimerlo ma anche detto ciò almeno per me l'unico risultato è che palesemente mi viene meno naturale parlarci. Non ho mai visto questo sentimento espresso da altri specificamente per la parola censorship ma dubito altamente che sia un pensiero unico, immagino che sia una di quelle situazioni dove io sono coglione e non noto certe cose ma poi se le riferisco a qualcun'altro se ne parla come se fosse qualcosa che fanno tutti, anche recentemente per esempio ho visto Hotaru Unno avvicinarsi all'inteliggenza artificiale per i suoi disegni, cosa che mi ha sconcertato abbastanza anche ignorando la negatività della tecnologia perchè non mi sembrava molto il genere di persona che lo avrebbe fatto (il discorso è partito da qualcun'altro che riferiva come Oku usasse anche lui IA per il suo nuovo manga, ma vabbè da lui te l'aspetti) e poi invece appena detto ciò bam no in verità è un'epidemia nel campo dell'eromanga ma io sono cieco e non ho visto gli artisti che invece apparentemente lo hanno cominciato a usare in massa quest'anno. Vabbè, sono deficiente pazienza, non la prima volta che me ne rendo conto, di certo non l'ultima.
Adesso a scriverla così sembra quasi come se non mi piacesse apprendere qualcosa che non conoscessi che di certo non è il caso ma c'è comunque quel sentimento di sentirsi come il coglione di turno in situazioni come queste. Penso che banalmente sia perchè ho un brutto carattere più che altro.
Sta chiudendo anche Weebdex per carità che ci fosse qualcosa di buono al mondo, ne ero molto fiducioso dato che è lo stesso tizio che si occupa anche di schale.network e di hdoujin, ho visto dei commenti a riguardo sul server di mangabaka ma insomma sembra comunque un po' stramba come situazione, che peccato.
Idem con i DMCA di Fakku a hitomi downloader e che altro, che situazione ripugnante.
Su sadpanda ultimamente si traduce molto Naoki Yamamoto, è una sola persona che se ne occupa ma ne sono veramente contento, le prime pagine del primo capitolo della collezione senza titolo sono una delle cose più erotiche che abbia mai letto, è da quando ho aperto quella galleria che ci penso. Slad parlava molto bene anche del terzo capitolo, sono molto curioso di leggere anche quello, ho visto che già ha tradotto la parte iniziale. Penso che sia un ragazzo cinese che se ne occupa, chissà se vorrà fare anche altro dopo aver finito questa antologia.
Comincerò a farmi un server da casa, con il viaggio in giappone di fine anno dovrei sul serio risparmiare ma ho paura che più aspetto più la situazione peggiori perciò mi dovrei dare una mossa.
Se sto due mesi in giappone e parto a settembre spero che se vivo da monaco con gli stipendi di Giugno, Luglio, Agosto (e settembre) ci possa sopravviere senza dover entrare nei risparmi veri e propri, perciò forse posso anche pensarci ad un home server piccolo iniziale, e poi ingrandirlo a novembre/dicembre?
Kimi Rito parlava di avere amici con 20TB liberi per il materiale che sta hostando attualmente su cloud, mi piacerebbe poterlo aiutare in qualche modo (egoisticamente anche solo per aver accesso ai suoi file).
Got banned from imgbb, pretty annoying, I used it a lot for image uploads ever since imgur started deleting nsfw stuff, thought it was a good alternative but I guess not, probably got banned because I made a lot of loli submissions one after the other in quick succession on anilist, mostly uncensoring overly censored covers (well, everything that's not the unedited original cover is overly censored really but you get the idea), and was using it for uploading all the covers. Thankfully the mods accepted the changes quickly so the submissions didn't get hit by them also deleting everything I had ever uploaded too.
Forgot about it but I guess I used it to upload images on here too, seems like the Magazine Z page especially got pretty badly hit, need to reup them somewhere else, I've been using catbox now but I wish it had clipboard uploading too rather than only local and url ones.
Pretty gamey airport stay today, I took out my psp to play prinny 2 while waiting and the guy next to me was pretty enthusiastic about it, he was saying how he has a switch yada yada but he had a pretty evil heart, only really talking about reselling prices for it and asking how much mine would go, didnt really talk about games at all except for saying he only really plays first part games on his switch and that there's nothing else on that thing. He was flying to Cluj so I guess it's pretty in character too.
A few minutes after he got up another guy sat down in his place and he also took out a switch, didn't talk with him since he was pretty focused on it but he was playing Kakarot, I think he was in the Buu saga, or at least Vegeta was wearing his outfit from that arc during some cutscene, the game looks fun, I should see if I can play it on pc at some point too.
On the plane I got the middle row, actually got on early for once which is rare, usually I just wait for everyone else to get on to not queue but this time I noticed that the priority line was almost done and I had a priority ticket too so I just got up and waited only for the lady in front of me to be done. Apparently they didn't have enough free busses to get people to the plane so after the first group got in we had to wait like 40ish minutes for the rest too. Anyway, middle seat, to my left was a guy who just slept through the whole thing, to my right was a guy who really dwarfed me, both height but especially width wise, I'm fat myself so with him in the mix it was a pretty cramped experience too, but weirdly not as bad as I thought it would be, I've definitely had much more uncomfortable rides in the past, incl ones where neighbours' sizes wasn't relevant.
The plane felt like one of the jankiest I've been on, I don't think I've ever bad a landing process quite as turbulent as this was before, felt like the plane was jolting all over while descending as if it was in the middle of a storm, the seats armrests were derelict too but the seat proper was just business as usual at least and the plane was clean, I remember last time I got back home I was susprised at the fact that they hadn't actually cleaned the plane from the previous ride's passengers.
Got back home at around 23 or so, was pretty tired since I didn't sleep much the previous night due to being dumb (gaming, reading, scrolling, too much of the latter), evergreen problem.